Look at my way

I've been stressed and unmotivated for quite some time now . I keep grumbling and huffing about all the unfairness of life . Today I did my History paper, and this is my first time I've been so unprepared for a History exam . I kept telling myself "Suraya, it's okay. There's always a first for something" . Then later in the day I had the worst music session in my life . I don't think I'll be able to pass my exam if I keep at it this way . Sigh,muses of a teenager .

I shed a few tears during Add Maths tuition ,going on, " What am I good at ? I'm not smart enough , I'm not pretty , I'm not thin enough , I can't stay a near 5 mile radius to the kitchen , but I'm pretty glued to the fridge . I'm not a good leader , I might as well lead a flock of birds ... or they might realise I'm a sore loser too, what can I do ? Show me something that I can do , please . Show me "

It wasn't my intention to be so vulnerable ,nor was it to kick ass during Add Maths .

So when my teacher said " So far, I can see only one person getting A for Add Maths " and she kind of refered to me I was thrilled. And slowly,that calming comforting and familiar feeling crept back into my body .I can do this, I can still do this .

BEAST MODE ON . But for now , it's sleep time .

Are you down with the ranting ? Yes ? Ok.