A sister .

I live in a family with 5, meat-loving brothers and unfortunately no sister . Growing up, I was always referred to as a tomboy or kampung-girl (i used to love eating gulai rebung , ekk :p) by my big brothers and that bothered me for quite a long time, until they found new names to call me such as b********** . That is a secret , I will never tell . 

I've always dreamed of a big sister , someone I could cook with , share boy problems ,secrets , cry to , shop together  and even learn how to drive from her . But instead,Allah SWT gave me beautiful cousins who would always be there for me , so I need to learn to appreciate them more and treat them as how I want to be treated . I always take them for granted and this will be something that I will work on . 

PS. If I did have a sister , I wished it was Louise Roe <3

Syazwhale Cupcakes

I made cupcakes today after reading my favourite blog - negativetone.blogspot.com . Her cupcakes were mouth-watering and I was literally having Niagara Falls for the past two days . I call them Syazwhale  Cupcakes , just because ;) 


Since the end of PMR , I have been a free bird . Coming and going as I wish . Reading till the wee hours of the morning . Baking like the goddess herself , Nigella  Lawson  , and not to mention  , tumblring while flipping through the pages of my new pasta book . There isn't an Oglio recipe in it though . Anyway , anyone up for Linguini Carbonara ? I'm cooking . :)

More than likely

I have spent more than 24 hours sitting on this chair,watching movies and Vampire Diaries .

Showing-off

Hello pretty invisible people who read my blog . I am here once again after so long of choking textbooks down my throat , to the extent of me buying a new History book for Form 4 & 5 . Yes some of you might say " Oh she's just doing that to show off. Form 4 History big whoop . " I'm not even going to respond to that .


And also , I bought Vampire Diaries Season 2 . Ahh I can hear my cousin and her significant other laughing at me because the other day I was reading Fallen by what's-her-name-Kate-something . Kate Laurent, I suppose and they thought I was reading a book about vampires . I'm not going to try to explain why Vampire Diaries is different than Twilight because half of you won't give a damn about it , and I can't really afford time being wasted seeing that I have three more months of no-school and no homework . Oh I'm a very happy bunny .


And a book about pasta . It's just gonna be me , linguine , bed and Damon Salvatore from now on . I'm estatic.

Progress .

Belajar

Do you need me yet ?

Shut up . That's what I always want to say when you're talking to me these few days . If you're busy with your PMR , and your other best friend , and forgot about me ,though I'm still in the same class, I won't mind . Because I'll be busy with PMR too and yeah , I won't need anyone to lie on during rough times too right ? Right ? No I'm not gonna shed tears no more this year . I haven't in a long time . I haven't had anything to cry for . I'm doing a good job so far , don't start it . 


I really do hope that you're happy . I really do . 


For you, Sab . <3

Someone help me cuz I'm doing my best .

Maybe if I don't get a nervous breakdown tonight , it'll be because of this boys . 

Why , Oh why am I ?

It's two months to PMR . Two weeks to Trial . Things have been tough lately, and easy too . I've let go of my past , and definitely I'm happy with the present .My marks are increasing but I still need to put my heart into it :)

Raya and puasa is coming ,eh puasa first right ? Are you excited yet ? IamIamIamIamIamIam . :D . Bought my baju kurung already . Nothing special , just the same like my Mom . 

Oh well , here is to bulan Ramadhan . <3 

Peace and cookies

Hope

My tests are in 3 days, and I just started studying . Well , better late than never right guys ? ;) Bad example I know , but even though I study last minute , I am still able to score the tests . For those who are reading my blog , don't tell my parents ! :p But is there , someone out there reading my blog ? There must be someone . Anybody ? 

Change your mind set .

Today , was the best day ever.  We played music , posed for the cameras with our biggest smile, had a motivational talk by an Education Counsellor from Inti Nilai . I wish I had pictures from today but sadly I don't .

I'm feeling very lazy to go to tuitions and activities in school . I just wanna sit home and study for PMR . I might suffer from Insomnia if I don't start sleeping and studying at the right time , or just really bad test marks .

I'm gonna give all I've got , until the very end . I won't stop

Comfort Food .

Too cold for you to keep her , 

Too cold for you to leave her .

Test . Zombie wake me up 

Resting my bones on your shoulder

                                                                                  No I don't want to talk about it .


Won't we sit back and make-up ? Come stay with me a little bit longer . We don't have to do anything . We could just talk and stalk . We could watch a movie maybe , We could cook something if you'd like , listen to Maroon 5's new album . Count how many species of butterflies there are in the world . Just stay a bit longer . 

I'm always that kid in school that gives to smiles to everyone .

Woooah yeah I really really do .

You know the phrase ' It's better to have less friends than many fake ones ' I really believe that . I really thought that we would stick around until the end , but after hearing those words coming out from your lips I'm really happy you're far gone . 

Don't you think I was too young to be messed with ? The girl in the dress cried the whole way home .

He and I had something beautiful

Why fall in love when you know pain lies at the end of the tunnel ?

I remembered 2009 . I was thin , fresh from primary school with 5A's in hand I was out to see what high school had for me . I suspected monkey love , failing a few subjects , picking myself up from a heart break and to feel what a teenager really feels like . And I felt all of that . I had a crush on a boy that sat in front of me those few months before he moved . He was handsome and spoke English , something rarely found in a Malay boy . I envied the fact that he scored high marks for the first test . He taught me a few tricks up his sleeve . I was sure , he was a keeper . 

And so that day came when he told me he got an offer to a boarding school in Malacca . A few tears were shed but I knew we would meet again soon ;') 

2010 I loved life . History , Baking , Art , Music , Religion .

I called it HamBAr(m)Ger . 

Now in 2011 , I've put my life away and put studies , in front . I'm oh so attracted to my beautiful religion . The history , the truth in it all makes me shiver oh how I am to answer on Judgement Day when the answers lies on solat and Al-Quran . I promise to cover my hair by 25th August . 

Oh did you know ? I met my Form 1 crush at Giant while I was shopping for groceries . He was on a trolley when he saw me . Yes , he was riding on the trolley . I said Hi Nik ! and he called back  , 'Suraya !' . Met his parents and he met my mom . Gosh that was awkward . I can feel those sparks again but I'm not putting my hopes up too high . Coz, why would you fall in love with someone when you know the pain that lies at the end of it ? 

Hello there .

I'm lying down on my bed with my back to the pillow I bought in Ikea late 2009 . I've been thinking of what to write .

 I realized I haven't done any of my dreams , except for Facebook and tuition . No music . No photographs . No baking . What does this mean , to me ? I've been thinking about this too . Does it mean I quit every single I do ? Actually it does . I've quit alot of stuff in my past . Ballet , swimming , tennis,gymnastics and even running . I've stopped running . My life , my strength involves in running . No wonder I feel like shit . 

Maybe new dreams . Let's just pray I don't quit them either .

I'm wearing the tudung by August 25th . But I want to wear it now , I'm so excited . I feel closer to God when I'm in it <3