Resting my bones on your shoulder

                                                                                  No I don't want to talk about it .


Won't we sit back and make-up ? Come stay with me a little bit longer . We don't have to do anything . We could just talk and stalk . We could watch a movie maybe , We could cook something if you'd like , listen to Maroon 5's new album . Count how many species of butterflies there are in the world . Just stay a bit longer . 

I'm always that kid in school that gives to smiles to everyone .

Woooah yeah I really really do .

You know the phrase ' It's better to have less friends than many fake ones ' I really believe that . I really thought that we would stick around until the end , but after hearing those words coming out from your lips I'm really happy you're far gone . 

Don't you think I was too young to be messed with ? The girl in the dress cried the whole way home .

He and I had something beautiful

Why fall in love when you know pain lies at the end of the tunnel ?

I remembered 2009 . I was thin , fresh from primary school with 5A's in hand I was out to see what high school had for me . I suspected monkey love , failing a few subjects , picking myself up from a heart break and to feel what a teenager really feels like . And I felt all of that . I had a crush on a boy that sat in front of me those few months before he moved . He was handsome and spoke English , something rarely found in a Malay boy . I envied the fact that he scored high marks for the first test . He taught me a few tricks up his sleeve . I was sure , he was a keeper . 

And so that day came when he told me he got an offer to a boarding school in Malacca . A few tears were shed but I knew we would meet again soon ;') 

2010 I loved life . History , Baking , Art , Music , Religion .

I called it HamBAr(m)Ger . 

Now in 2011 , I've put my life away and put studies , in front . I'm oh so attracted to my beautiful religion . The history , the truth in it all makes me shiver oh how I am to answer on Judgement Day when the answers lies on solat and Al-Quran . I promise to cover my hair by 25th August . 

Oh did you know ? I met my Form 1 crush at Giant while I was shopping for groceries . He was on a trolley when he saw me . Yes , he was riding on the trolley . I said Hi Nik ! and he called back  , 'Suraya !' . Met his parents and he met my mom . Gosh that was awkward . I can feel those sparks again but I'm not putting my hopes up too high . Coz, why would you fall in love with someone when you know the pain that lies at the end of it ? 

Hello there .

I'm lying down on my bed with my back to the pillow I bought in Ikea late 2009 . I've been thinking of what to write .

 I realized I haven't done any of my dreams , except for Facebook and tuition . No music . No photographs . No baking . What does this mean , to me ? I've been thinking about this too . Does it mean I quit every single I do ? Actually it does . I've quit alot of stuff in my past . Ballet , swimming , tennis,gymnastics and even running . I've stopped running . My life , my strength involves in running . No wonder I feel like shit . 

Maybe new dreams . Let's just pray I don't quit them either .

I'm wearing the tudung by August 25th . But I want to wear it now , I'm so excited . I feel closer to God when I'm in it <3